30 random things you need to know about ME

Assalamualaykum,

I think most of the people around me don't even know who am I really. I mean, through my perspective, of why I did that, and why I didn't do that. And, I rarely tell people of what I actually feel, what I actually think, even though sometimes it can be predictable, but most of the times, it is not that easy to read what I'm going to do and why. So, just a few days before the New Year, and here is the list of 30 random things that people should know about me (Warning: it is so random, I will just write whatever that pops into my head):

1. I have lost interest in lot of things. Study, girls, sports. I want some sort of new field that can give me a new interest. To start thinking. 
2. I hate to read any books. If you ever find me reading a book, bare in mind, I don't actually read them. And most of the time, I read books very slowly. Because I tend to think about what the book is all about, what and why, in each and every sentence. Because I learn through understanding. And to understand, I need to think of why and what. Which, unfortunately, in the field of medicine, it doesn't actually work that way, sadly, they actually work through 'memorizing'. I need to re-track myself to adapt to this.
3. If I ever get upset, I usually will keep on trying for another 2 times. If things don't work, I will hate that thing for sure, and forever I cant see and look at that thing. This works for every single thing.
4. I get what I want. If I get what I don't want, it will ended up being a dust collector. What I want is what I need.
5. I don't actually into people that kinds of sharing about Syria, Mesir, Gaza etc on social media, because I don't feel I can actually help them. If there is some act that I actually can help them, I would certainly do: donations, etc. And, most importantly, the people who actually keep on being such a noise about these issues on social medias, most of them are just blatant ignorant people who just care about the 'outside' issues, not to the 'sick' neighbor in front of his own eyes. Irony much?
6. I take both opinions. Either they are pro-me or against me. But most people misunderstand me, because I tend to rebel for the first time, and after sometimes, I might start to accept some of their idea.
7. I like being in a tense situation, react to that stupidly, and learn from that repetitively.
8. I hate a person who is blind. Or blind folding him/herself. 
9. I love foods. I love arts (my kinds of art). Playing badminton is an art, never been a sport for me.
10. I love maths and physics. And architecture. 
11. I hate failures. I never like failures. I always set a high standard for myself. And get disappointed from that each and every time. And I hate a person who actually gets all the successes but act like they are the one being in the failure shoes.
12. People call me emo-er. I call myself an expressive guy. I tend to express my self more than others. Why not expressing yourselves in front rather than expressing em at the back? 
13. I drink coffee with cinnamon in it. It is thatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt delicious. And with almonds too. 
14. I like white chocolate. Back then, I hate dark chocolate. Now, I kind of get the bitter kick of it. 
15. I shop because it is the only thing that I can do whenever I want to give something to someone (apparently me) but most of them, I dont feel like giving because they are not that special. 
16. Hate the people who thought to be special, actually, just an astigmatic person in front of me.
17. I don't actually believe in anyone. Except my parent, siblings and 1 or 2 of my close friends. I believe most people are pretentious. As I am to them, as they are to me. 
18. I like melancholic musics. Opera musics.
19. I hate being socially pressured. It is the irony of me. Whenever the society says don't, and I will just obey. Its like when you want to meet someone, and all of sudden people boo or tease whatever of you, I will just hold my step. Forever.
20. I love being controlled, but not being over-controlled.
21. I love colors. It is one of the medium that I express myself outloud.
22. I disagree with lots of things because I love argument. Argument makes you think. 
23. I am a coward. 
24. Being different is actually being me. 
25. Remember there is a period when I actually can hate people? Well, congratulations, 'you' already made to that stage. 
26. Instead of thinking right now, I love to day dream. Right now? Most of the times. 
27. C'mon, dont tell me lies, everyone loves sleeping right?
28. I do everything according to my mood. My mood sometimes coincide with my responsibility. I prior my responsibility over my mood.
29. There is a time when I be quite, and suddenly don't feel like talking. Its actually I am taking my own time to make a time for myself to plan whats ahead of me.
30. This blog is a ranting blog. Full of unwise ideology. I celebrate ideas. Crazy ideas. :)