Borba

Fight. 

Borba.

In life, we could never escape this battle,

Or perhaps, battles.

It's always inevitable.

Dont't worry because it will never not come.

Yes, it is troublesome, 

Especially for someone who never learn to overcome...

...overcome the problems, the lessons in each and every chapter of our mistake's lumps,

Luckily, we for most of the days, continue to breath in,

Breath out and breath in, in out, in out,

Till the 'in' has no 'out',

When will be it, as He knows what the end of us in this life round out. 

I always ask myself, "why do people are so scared of the death?",

Sometimes, I do feel scared, 

Becauese I know that I am not ready,

Because I know that I didn't do enough,

Because I know at that particular time, that the true meaning of life,

Is always about happiness, 

Being happy, is not being sappy, 

Which brings us to the point,

Happiness in the eye of God.

But people still can keep asking themselves, "if the happiness in the eye of God is my happiness, why aren't still I am happy?"

'Done enough', is a petty simple word. 

Have you really done enough good in this world, that you think, 

"I am happy for being good and spreading good!"?

For most of the times, doing good in each and everything, is admittedly, hard.

But for doing few deeds, and you feel proud of yourself, for being better, not for being better than others, but better from your past (be it for the past 5 minutes or 0,05 seconds), should do enough.

Doing good has never been about how 'big' is your deed, but, how 'many' and 'sincere' is your deed, God-willingly, in the eye of Allah.

So, will you always be better to get your happiness, i mean true sincere happiness, rather than making all these fuss just about achievement in the eye of people, Hafidz?

Keep asking ourselves, because the answer not be in the comment section, or the 'p.s' section in the end of your post, the absolute true answer only lies in your heart, your Imaan. 

Allah. 

Allah.

Allah.

Innalillah kepada ibumu, kawan baik aku, Adila Zawawi. Aku rasa amat teruk sekali, sebagai seorang kawan yang sentiasa dibantu oleh kau, bagaikan tiada daya untuk aku menolong baik harta, baik tenaga seperti mana yang kau pernah bantu aku sebelum-sebelum ini. Cuma mungkin doa seorang pendosa yang mampu mengiringi roh ibumu.

Al-Fatihah.