Synthesis

Actually I've a lot of things that I really wanna wrote, but in the end I always abandon them because I know I've got a lot of things to do too. Quite busy really, but most of them are not just about studies. Studies are lame, well for first semester fourth year students. Even now, I shouldn't be blogging, I should be studying by now because I have thousands (exaggerating) of questions that I need to cover. If not, I am dead. Seriously.

I must say that if there is no drama in Volgo, and I will not write something. It is pretty much kinda true. But not that true, like absolutely true. Because for the record, I don't actually write that much in the last year, 2012. Its an achievement (?), isn't it? Tanda kematangan aku terletak kepada berapa banyak post dalam blog aku per year, and untuk lebih detail, post-post yang merepek dan emotionally retard agak berkurang di blog ini. Aku dah matang, for God sake. 

Ok, tak jugak sebenarnya. Aku tak pernah matang. Bila tengok video yang aku share balik kat dalam facebook berkenaan nak-kahwin-anak-orang-ke-tak-mana-boleh-kawan-anak-sendiri-apa-aku-merepek-ni, antara ciri-ciri atau petanda yang kita kita ni mampu kawen ke tak, aspek duit, agama, management, ilmu tu kenalah mantap. Bila dilihat balik, semua ciri-ciri tu aku tak ada pun. Serious. So for now, I am proudly to say that I am not ready even for couple/tunang what more into marriage. Fuah, bila bab matang je kawen, bab matang je kawen, bab imam islam muda rijal semuanya kawen awal. Like seriously, jangan bising bab Islam berkembang nak tawan palestine bagai kalau dalam cerep (kepala otak dalam bahasa russia) kalau asyik pikir bab kawen muda, tua, kawen empat dan sebagainya, serious. Ni nanti aku cakap balik. 

Ok for now, perihal tahap kematangan dengan tanggungjawab dan normanya. 

Seriously, how many of you like serious ready for everything that is ahead of you? Because if you couldn't expect for something that is ahead of you, how can you be ready or prepared for it right? But if you have an obligatory or responsibility to stand up in whatever going to happen ahead of you, what will you do? You will stand there, no matter what, learn from mistakes and all. Okay. Konfem tak paham. Point aku sebenarnya senang. Tak semua laki actually betul-betul prepare untuk apa di depannya, sebab kita semua tak perfect and hidup itu adalah perjalanan, bukan macam dalam game boleh naik-naik level. Antara elemen terpenting hidup adalah kesilapan, dan kesilapan kita belajar yang eventually akan membentuk pengalaman. Cuba tanya ayah, dulu dia ada betul-betul prepare ilmu management semua? 90% tak, elemen utama waktu zaman adalah hanya kestabilan ekonomi, ayah mesti ada kerja. syarat utama. 

Bila one man decide to do something with his life, dia automatically tau what responsibility is ahead of him, he is actually well alert of it. So janganlah nak sangsi bagai kalau dia ni kaki kepala screw hilang, tapi kalau dia ada for at least basis agama, dont hesitate, he can be better. Banyak pattern yang aku nampak untuk ilmuwan ilmuwan maya dekat facebook bab memilih laki. Nak laki perfect itu ini. Yang dia nampak macam buat keluarga tu macam buat satu rumah banglo yang lawa dihiasa indah dengan kolam sebesar stadium shah alam. Kenapa aku tak nampak satu pun yang nak buat kawen tu macam beli satu bidang tanah, then buat rumah sesama, then upgrade rumah jadi banglo sesama? Ini analogi. Maksud aku kenapa tak nampak seseorang tu sebagai satu kawan/pasangan (nak termuntah) yang akan progress bersama? Bukan terus ada something terus "yaaaa, kami sudah established punya akhlak, baik tak baik tak?". 

Itu satu. 

Dua: Akibat ketidakmatangan yang tiada akal, kita banyak bising bab palestine dan israel dan the only thing that we can see ahead of us are just to priorly boycott barangan israel or anything related to donation of money to israel, and is to jihad by means of getting you a gun, and try to kill at least a human name Israeli jew. God. I don't know what went wrong, but if you could possibly think, thats not the only way, but personally is actually just a waste for you to think like. Theres no point you go there and die for nothing and hoping from that deed you can enter jannah like you have any other responsibility in this world. Its not like we are palestinian. they have nothing to lose for. its their pride to protect a country named Palestine and its their life which will be their gun, but not their gun to be their life. 

Let me get things clear, first of all. Untuk orang Palestine, tak mengapa kalau dia nak mati. Kita mungkin boleh boikot, tapi boikot itu bukan sekadar satu cara. Pernah tengok video defense system israel macam mana? Aku bukan nak bangga dengan Israel, tapi ingat bagaimana orang Yahudi Israel naik balik dari berterabur di seluruh pelusuk bumi, and poof tetiba dia dapat masuk tanah Palestine balik? Ingat?  Dia bukan jadi someone yang manipulative SAHAJA but orang Israel itu sendiri pandai dari segala bidang. Bahagian defense, banyak senjata yang puak Israel cipta, and banyak drones yang dia cipta. Pernah orang Islam nak buat satu smart drones nak bantu diri sendiri untuk perang? or just masih di tipikal minded nak berperang dengan pistol and senapang and all? sebab itulah perdana menteri Palestine tak suruh umat Islam lain "lai lai ma la palestine, kita serang Israel ramai-ramai" bukan macam tu pun, dia cakap "tegakkan Islam di negara kamu!". Bagi certain orang, tegakkan islam berbalik pada hudud yada yada, sangat tipikal otak senget ke kanan (art and religious) , sebab Islam is not about that only. Islam is about conquering the knowledge, expand the knowledge, apply the knowledge. it is absurd that sekarang kita banyak menimba, tapi tak banyak pula buat ilmu baru.  mana ke tak nye, lepas belajar, timba ilmu puas-puas, semata-mata nak secure place nak dapat kerja. patutke? kalau kau keje dokter, carilah satu way of helping them by inventing a multi purpose tool to help upgrade health quality kat sana ke, yang engineer buat drones jugak ke, kan bagus. 

fight with knowledge, not by guns. aku sendiri kena tetapkan aim apa sebenarnya yang aku boleh buat instead of just boycotting israeli products.

harap faham.

jawapan for schafi: antara nikmat yang aku dapat dalam dunia and I thank Allah for giving that nikmat is Islam. I know I am not perfect and all, but Islam has been really good for me. It gives me something to believe in, it gives me something that I can hold to when there is up and down. Tak kiralah saat aku rasa aku ni manusia paling berdosa, aku rasa masih ada pintu. Islam bagi aku mata, yang mata biasa mungkin nampak segalanya biasa, tapi Islam bagi nampak semuanya luar biasa atas nama Allah itu Maha Pencipta, Maha Mengetahui. Ilmu apa yang aku belajar, nampak lebih kagum, nampak lebih besar sungguhpun sekecil bakteria. Islam, truly not just a religion by name, but its actually everything, culture and all. its the way of life.