Salam,
So today we learnt about stress. On how it could influence our internal organs, metabolism etc etc. And stress, which I previously understood is only a matter of 'psychological' thing, well but today I knew that it is not only mentally-related, but also physically or maybe economically-related. And that was medic. I know its boring.
I always feel stress. I need to feel stress. Because my life is empty, thats why I need some problems. Not a problem-solving questions, but, problem like a real problem. But problems are not always necessary, because sometimes some problems are unnecessary, which are the kind of problems that I don't wanna deal with and far to difficult to handle with. And most of the times, these problems are the sweetest things of my life. And that concluded on why I need problems.
It has been recently something made into my mind and the feeling of urge to do it was pretty much unbearable, but still bearable (?) right now. Because some people, without any further a do, judged me. I know people can judge you on whatever that they want, well as long as the you know what are you doing, then it is not wrong. On most of the times, they judge you wrongly, accusing you for something bad that you do. Well I think, I'm the otherwise. I think, you guys overjudged me in the sense of me being to good. Or at least has a bit good in me. It is plainly sad.
Because, I have nothing good in me. You can say me whatever you want, as long as it is a bad thing about me. I'm not being emo *daa, I just finished my Patphys class, why should I be emo*, but the thing is I'm just trying to admit that I'm not perfect. And even very far for 0.00001 of perfection that people ever wanna look on some other people. Husnuzon on me is kinda unapplicable. Oh btw, 'you' in here means everyone, I'm not pointing to certain individual.
So, in my blog I may seem someone who looked perfect because of keep complaining about others, this idea, that idea. Well that's just it. I don't know how to say this, but I am the kind of person who critics but me, myself is far from that person that I always condemn about. I think I don't have to tell anybody how weak person I am, because I think everyone knows the bad side of me. A LOT. Undeniably, A LOT. Yes.
So say me the bad thing, because I feel good knowing that I'm no one in the eyes of humans but I wanna be someone in the eyes of Allah. Thats all.
Still far.
So today we learnt about stress. On how it could influence our internal organs, metabolism etc etc. And stress, which I previously understood is only a matter of 'psychological' thing, well but today I knew that it is not only mentally-related, but also physically or maybe economically-related. And that was medic. I know its boring.
I always feel stress. I need to feel stress. Because my life is empty, thats why I need some problems. Not a problem-solving questions, but, problem like a real problem. But problems are not always necessary, because sometimes some problems are unnecessary, which are the kind of problems that I don't wanna deal with and far to difficult to handle with. And most of the times, these problems are the sweetest things of my life. And that concluded on why I need problems.
It has been recently something made into my mind and the feeling of urge to do it was pretty much unbearable, but still bearable (?) right now. Because some people, without any further a do, judged me. I know people can judge you on whatever that they want, well as long as the you know what are you doing, then it is not wrong. On most of the times, they judge you wrongly, accusing you for something bad that you do. Well I think, I'm the otherwise. I think, you guys overjudged me in the sense of me being to good. Or at least has a bit good in me. It is plainly sad.
Because, I have nothing good in me. You can say me whatever you want, as long as it is a bad thing about me. I'm not being emo *daa, I just finished my Patphys class, why should I be emo*, but the thing is I'm just trying to admit that I'm not perfect. And even very far for 0.00001 of perfection that people ever wanna look on some other people. Husnuzon on me is kinda unapplicable. Oh btw, 'you' in here means everyone, I'm not pointing to certain individual.
So, in my blog I may seem someone who looked perfect because of keep complaining about others, this idea, that idea. Well that's just it. I don't know how to say this, but I am the kind of person who critics but me, myself is far from that person that I always condemn about. I think I don't have to tell anybody how weak person I am, because I think everyone knows the bad side of me. A LOT. Undeniably, A LOT. Yes.
So say me the bad thing, because I feel good knowing that I'm no one in the eyes of humans but I wanna be someone in the eyes of Allah. Thats all.
Still far.
Si vis amari,ama. (Seneca)
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